Hey guys my name is Bianca and my husband and I thought it would be a good idea to start a blog about my Flawless journey, my walk with Christ, and my health journey hoping to help others in the process. Those who know me know that I am a woman of a few words so you're probably as shocked as I am reading that I'm starting a blog. But I feel that it's necessary. Especially in the world we live in it's so easy to get trapped in the idea that "I'm not good enough" or "I'm not pretty enough". But the truth is, you are ENOUGH. I hope this blog along with all my future blogs encourages you.
So here we are. Where do I start?! I guess I'll start by introducing myself and explain a tad bit about my journey. I'm from Detroit, but moved to Dallas in 2018. I have been married for one year now to my partner in crime/ best friend/ business partner/ account manager/ customer service representative/ my everything, Michael. We actually met online, which is a story for another day haha.
As you may have read in my Bio, I started making natural soap after my 40 day fast. I was going through a hard time and desperately wanted to know what on earth was I here for. I remember reading "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren along with studying the bible and praying at all times of the day until I could hear the Holy Spirit speak to me. It happened towards the end of the 40 days and I remember the moment as if it was yesterday. I was terrified but in awe. I remember the overwhelming feeling I felt and seeing the hairs on my arms standing up. I felt so much peace and warmth in that moment like I have never felt before. I knew without a doubt that the Holy Spirit was speaking to me. I cried and couldn't believe that I actually had a purpose in life. And the gag is, so do YOU!
As time went on, I had my first cystic acne breakout in November 2014. I mean not the normal "puberty" breakout but big, cystic, deep nodules and not just one but many! I couldn't believe it. I felt like God was trying to play me but at the same time I should've known. I should've listened, but I didn't. I kept ignoring it and pushing it off. Kind of like the children of Israel, huh? Well, time went on, the acne got worse. Not only did it hurt me physically but it wrecked me emotionally and mentally. Many people will be confused by that statement but the truth is, struggling with acne puts a toll on your confidence and emotions.
It doesn't help that the world praises women more for their outward beauty than from what's within. From that moment on, I was reminded of my purpose. Every time I said I wasn't ready and decided to see multiple dermatologists, tried almost every drugstore product, binged watched YouTube, and literally tried almost every infomercial all with no success all the while hearing in my head literally EACH time I picked up a new product that "it's time for you to try " or "you are the answer to your problem ". I truly felt like I was losing my mind. But in 2016, I decided to finally listen and step out on faith. I started experimenting with making natural soaps. I would start then stop then start again. 2017 is when I put my all into learning more about cold process soap making. 2018 is when I started using only my soaps and products on my skin. The beginning of 2019 I started sharing my soaps with others to try out and give their honest opinion. August 2019 my husband gave me the name "Flawless" for the business. November 2019 is when Flawless was officially launched to the public. And here we are, 2020 just trying to make it.
You see, purpose does not happen overnight. It's a process. A journey full of many ups and downs, many tears of joy and many tears of disappointment, all entangled in His will for your life. The road to the final destination is not meant to be easy but it's meant to shape you and help others along the way. I still have so much to learn and have a long way to go but it's truly amazing what you can accomplish the moment you start to believe. You are capable of doing the unimaginable. Even when fear and doubt creeps in, remember at the end of the day God is still God. His word never returns void. Trust the process before you and rest in Him who knows the beginning from the end.
Stay tuned for future blog posts. Feel free to comment and share with others who may need encouragement today. Always remember, Jesus loves you!